Babies Don't Keep

Sunday was my niece's holiday pageant at preschool. It was so strange to be there and listening to our mom talk about how 20 years ago she was doing the same thing with us. In May we had my nephew's kindergarten graduation...It seems like time is flying by. Why are people always rushing to get here and there? I wish we could all slow down and enjoy life...

I woke up this morning tired and cranky. I had stayed up late the night before talking with my hubby on the webcam. By the time I got to bed, my youngest was ready to nurse, the oldest wanted to sing her ABCs to me and tell me a story. So waking up this morning was not pleasant. I always feel guilty that I am not up before my kids and that I am cranky in the morning but at the same time, I NEED those conversations with my hubby...

Our marriage has never been real stable, we got pregnant the day we got married and six months later got preggy again. I wouldn't trade my kids for anything but we are working hard at making our marriage work. I try to do the best I can with our situation that we have right now. And when I don't even notice that my oldest is able to use real words to communicate or she can identify objects...that makes me sad...

Today was a pretty good day though. Rory was really helpful around the house, picking up toys and restocking the diaper drawer. She colored me a couple of pictures and ate all her lunch (big deal for us...she has been on a hunger strike or something lately). Lily was fussy for a bit, but I discovered yet another two teeth coming in...So she was staying on the boob most the day...Fun! I love them both so much and I hate when I get snappy with them...

On another note...The water damage at our house is being covered by insurance thank goodness! They are replacing all the carpeting and a few walls. Plus repainting the entire bathroom and bedroom for us!! Yippee!! So good news on that front. Just have to call the insurance company and find out how to get a contractor...Well I suppose I will go to bed now...Maybe I wont be so cranky in the morning...*fingers crossed for sunshine tomorrow!!*