My Family

Some pics of my family

Rory

Lily

Ryan and I

I don't know what I would do without them. Sometimes it hurts just from loving them so much! I can't wait for him to be home and make our family whole again. Listening to Rory ask where her Daddy is just brings tears to my eyes. I am sad that Lily doesn't even know who Daddy is really. He deployed when she was under 3 mos old. I miss cuddling with him at night...Sometimes I resent him for not being here with us. Then I feel guilty for feeling like that...He is serving our country; something I felt I could no longer do while trying to raise these two beautiful miracles. In the end, I am sad more than anything else. Sad that he is missing so much of their lives; Sad that he hasn't seen Lily get her first teeth or learn how to crawl. Sad that Rory is missing her Daddy. There are days I feel so inadequate at handling the two of them, then feel ashamed about being mad that he isn't here...There are so many families out there who would love to be able to say their husband/brother/father/son/wife/sister/mother/daughter is deployed but sadly they are no longer with us. I love you honey!! We are anxiously awaiting your return!!